God is Good

Have you ever felt how it was like to be living a life of lie?

Have you ever felt how it was like to pretend like you are someone?

Have you ever felt how it was like to believe, that in your entire life, you are not normal?

You know, there was once a story. It was about the story of a boy but it was not about him. This boy did not have the opportunity to grow up with a father beside him.

His father died when he was still young. But he had a mother and older brothers.

However, certain needs, as what the boy had expected that his brothers would provide a fatherly love to him, was not given. This boy was even abused. Physically. Verbally. His heart was broken. Even at a young age of four, he had grown fear and hate for his brothers. He never desired to be like them.

What then did the boy do?

He searched for comfort. And he found it. He dearly loved his mother and his she-friends. He never played with young boys anymore as he was afraid to suffer the same experience he got from his brothers. At the age of 5, he was accustomed to play with young girls – which was alright but, ideally, is not supposed to be forever.

He thought it was already normal. He “thought” he was living a normal life.

And soon, as he was growing up in his teenage years, he forgot to have the chance to converse with other boys. He never knew what it felt like to grow up like a boy.

And you know what he realized? Of course we all know what the result was.

He realized he was homosexual. He had grown the desire to be with boys but he knew it was not the same like playing toys anymore.

And he said to himself, “Maybe, I was born this way!”

“Maybe, I was destined to be like this!”

“Shame to my brothers for causing all of this!”

He felt little. He felt inferior. He felt lesser. And so he compensated all of this with good grades, with achievements, and with honours. But he still failed. Sad story isn’t it?

To the end, the boy died. Yes, he died. But he did not die physically. He died spiritually. But He was made alive in Christ. As he thought it was already hopeless and helpless, God found him. God found him.

He realized it was not an identity crisis. He was always a man and always will be. Evil had just deceived him. He realized that it was just the work of the evil to ruin his life and to let him believe that gay is okay. But it was more than that.

As I said a while ago, the story was not about the boy. It was about God working in his life. How God had saved him and told him, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this is not from yourselves, it is My gift – not by works.”

God told him, “You don’t need to prove anything. You are my workmanship, created in My Son, Jesus Christ, to do good works, which I had prepared in advance for you to do. Now go and tell the people of the world and share the good news.”

The boy knew what God’s plan is for his life.

The boy believed that he has sinned but God had forgiven him already.

The boy accepted Christ, who saved him from bondage, to be his Saviour.

And God prepared him to stand in front of other people and say, “I am Japril D. Cataluña, saved by grace through faith, standing up for God as a lifetime messenger of His love for you.”